Medium Cool

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Common sense is too cautious,

Shut your mouth you never listen to your friends,

But you’ve seen me,

You beat me into art.

 

I know the distance that you keep is the max,

I know I said too much to take it back,

What did you see beneath me?

You’re unaware, but you left a mark.

 

Serpentine, sensible, martyr,

Asking me to play is a cash cold honor,

Take a drink and see it too,

Calm cool liquor through,

Everything you keep close to your heart,

 

There’s nothing to write,

Losing my voice,

Seen you in passing, who would’ve thought,

Nothing to hide, coffer of choice,

Donate your mysteries,

Die of white noise.

 

What am I but complacent, patient,

Image of relation shit I never could keep out,

Accusations baseless, faithless,

Ninety nine or higher,

Fever dream I’m burning down,

Nothing sustains me lately,

A wish isn’t worth much in waking,

Push a little harder, farther,

You’re a fire starter,

Speak and I can settle down,

Medium cool.

 

Common sense is too cautious,

You gotta know that we’re your biggest fans,

And you ease me, you please me,

When I want to be left alone,

Begin to think I’ve only got bad advice,

But when I’m sleeping deep I make it right,

And you break me,

You take me,

The way you do when there’s no one home,

 

Can we take a drive to consume, remove,

Irate dramas,

Killer king, inner chess,

I can’t see the future,

Red moves, black tools,

Glass soothing and smooth,

Pledge allegiance to you too.

 

Nothing to write, losing my voice,

Living is dreaming,

Watch where you’re crossing,

Blind in one eye, ear to the door,

Everything changes,

Die of white noise.

 

What am I but complacent, patient,

Triangle arrangement,

Promise things will turn around,

Apologies I make belated,

Shut my mouth and save it,

Whereabouts are you right now?

Nothing sustains me lately,

You’re not just a gem for the taking,

Eye to eye bombardment, starting over pray for guidance,

Speak and I can settle down.

 

Common sense is too cautious for the man, the plans,

The beautiful savage seasons,

Interjecting, point a finger, make amends,

And try not to rush,

Day to day, for days, it’s the same,

Like a phantom pain, or a mind divided,

I wish I had the perspective then, today,

The knowledge, the virtue, a second chance to,

Change your mind and say,

Everything I meant to.

‘Daisies’ – 1966

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Normally I’m not a huge fan of experimental avant-garde films, but this blew me away in film history yesterday.

A 1966 film from the Czech Republic, ‘Daisies’ is a trippy, boisterous, and stunning work of art by director Vera Chytilova. If you can find it, its worth sitting down with a bottle of wine, lights off, and just experiencing it.

Mid Year Shenanigans

Mid Year Shenanigans

I managed to keep May-August pretty busy and memorable.

This summer has been especially characterized by two things: movies and shaved ice. I’ve over indulged in both, always going to the same Hawaiian food stand where they make you a veritable mountain of flavors for a mere $4.

Among other things, my sister and her rambunctious kids came to visit; I enjoyed a trip to Sacramento with my mom and Grandma (and one delicious blood orange margarita); met my grandpa for the first (and likely last) time; trekked to a hidden spot on the river with my old pup Thunder; got addicted to the complex board game Arkham Horror; and finally had a lovely August “Friendsgiving” dinner with some pretty rad friends.

A great summer indeed, but I can hardly contain my excitement for what comes next: Fall!

Hey You, Can You Help!?

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I’m currently in the Film program at Portland State University.

I just entered a competition being hosted by JuntoBox Films, wherin I submitted a short synopsis/tagline for a short film concept, and if I win I’ll have the chance at a scholarship from my school to actually create the film.

If you would please just take a moment and visit this link and rate me 5 stars, I’d uber appreciate it! 😀

I believe you need only sign in with your Facebook to vote. And if you would like, read my idea and comment back here on what you thought of the concept!

The film is titled: ‘The Seventh Day’

You guys rock and you have my eternal gratitude!

Floodgates

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Shower off the mad stark,

Muffled laughs and Mars Bars,

Sweeter than the game.

Letting go of fear,

And shifting into gear,

Open the floodgates.

It’s strange that I don’t feel tense, feeling none of distress,

Nothing’s in my system.

How am I supposed to manage,

When I’m used to panic?

Flash of silver, turn me on,

Open the floodgates.

 

Renewed or screwed, elated mood,

Part of me consumed,

Longing to collide.

Stare into the ceiling, shoulder view,

Tell you what I know not what to do,

Torture is a waiting game, count slowly,

4. 3. 2.

It’s funny how I hardly feel as cool,

I don’t need to hide myself from you,

Laugh until you lose the will to bury all your wounds,

I can stitch them too.

 

Summer’s near with new starts,

Fall could be a wild card,

Winter with the rain.

Something strange has been sparked,

Wash away the bastards,

Serendipity.

The silence hurts without marks,

Nothing bruised by my heart,

Keeping me on the cusp,

Wandering through dead halls,

Face to sky in free fall,

I can tell you want to run.

Open the floodgates.

 

Renewed or screwed, elated mood,

Part of me consumed,

Longing to collide.

Stare into the ceiling, shoulder view,

Tell you what I know not what to do,

Torture is a waiting game, count slowly,

4. 3. 2.

It’s funny how I hardly feel as cool,

I don’t need to hide myself from you,

Laugh until you lose the will to bury all your wounds,

I can stitch them too.

The Blur

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I’ve lived my life by what I learned from being on the run,

Despite the shit I brought with it I know it could be worse,

It’s unconventional but fuck me if it isn’t fun,

If there’s a faster way to live,

Take me there.

I need it.

 

Your heart sounds like my own,

Pulsing like the freeway,

Can’t seem to find the words,

I want to kiss your face.

Embody what we need,

I’ll show you what you’ve missed,

And though the time will pass,

The blur is infinite.

 

With no excuse but youth and substance for resolve,

And disregard for what we know could make us fall,

I’m not afraid of the name or what may come,

And while the moment is calm,

Breathe in the blur like it’s light and will open my lungs.

Intensity

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I can hear the sound but can’t see the end,

Lightning in a beaker,

Sight for the seeker,

And deep breaths in the night,

Like decompression for the mind.

 

Intentions are cut,

Like the bends they flush out,

With time and intensity.

The alters – lustful, fickle, and bored,

Beat their hands in my chest hard,

Relentless as the sun.

 

I can feel the moment of impact and lift,

Though the source isn’t seen,

Like a voice on my shoulder,

That begs me to sleep,

And asks me to play,

For forever.

 

When I think of the days that I spent stagnant,

And the deja vu is the same as when I slept,

It attracts me to reach for the things I find most redolent.

When you open your mouth,

The atmosphere charges,

Gathers with static and fate,

Nothing’s the same.

Into the Night

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Things we said begin to blend,

Into the night outside the norm,

It’s all up in the air and rising quickly into such,

An unexpected form like cleaning off the dust.

 

Stay just a little longer, I won’t bite and I won’t split,

Or sway you to a corner for the choice is yours to give,

If I show you all my scars,

Will you come on in?

 

I promise that I won’t bite,

Into the night.

 

All of us are scared,

Without a clue,

Peace will linger,

Into the night,

All of us aware,

Unsure what to do,

Into the night.

 

The fear I feel is of letting you both down,

I can see where I was wrong without a guide,

And burning out,

Fading in won’t let me focus on the now.

 

Everything was on the edge,

Of an oiled knife, in truth,

Threatening to slip off and ignite within you,

If there’s darker days ahead then I’ll make them blue.

 

I promise that I won’t bite.

Into the night.

 

All of us are scared,

Without a clue,

Peace will linger,

Into the night,

All of us aware,

Unsure what to do,

Into the night.

Into the night.

Crown

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One step back, just leave me to think,

You’ve got what I need, I don’t mean to tease.

Losing myself, a selfish creed,

I’ll do what I want, I can’t feel a thing.

Don’t fight the way I’m made I can’t control a crowd,

There’s no excuse or torture,

That could lift this crown.

 

I don’t want you to go.

 

There’s such a thing as too bold,

You hurt what you love,

You’re blind to them both.

On scuffed knees scream begging and torn,

The secrecy gone, your sins on the floor.

Don’t fight for my head,

There’s nothing there but doubt.

If you are here tomorrow,

Put me in the ground.

 

I don’t want you to go.